i think i actually just felt
a pang in my heart
not the kind that comes from sadness
well, actually, yes, sadness. but not the friendship, growing-apart kind. or the pity kind. or the loneliness kind.
not the kinds i'm used to.
i don't even remember the last time i felt this way
my heart has lain dormant for so long.
i told myself i wouldn't get attached.
but now i have, and it's too late.
the walls i built are coming down...
but in a way i'm glad
now i know i have a heart (well, i always knew i had a heart. but i'd forgotten that it could feel certain emotions.)
now i know that maybe i am human, after all.
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edit: or not.
got over it in like 5 minutes.
at least, that's what i'll tell myself. because the tough veneer that i keep up on the outside is also inside me. and i will never admit to anyone, not even myself, that someone means any more to me than i do to them.
Mar 18, 2010
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Hey honey pie.
I hope that what I'm about to say makes sense:
Whatever you feel, don't be afraid to feel.
Anyways, I didn't realize so many people had blogs. I have no idea how to follow yours, I keep looking around for a link, but I'm technologically stupid.
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