letting go.

so this weekend i started cleaning my room and deleting some of the old files on my computer (which is a dinosaur. i've had it since like 5th grade. seriously, i still have my 5th grade state report on indiana & my alphabet book on neopets.) and i realized that i am, depending on how you look at things, either a) a pack rat, b) extremely sentimental, or c) a slob. or maybe choice d: all of the above.
anyways, i dont know whether this is just my neighborhood, but every month or so a truck comes to pick up clothing for donation in these huge pink plastic bags that they leave in your door handles. after going through all my old clothes, which consisted of clothing that i literally bought in 6th grade (during my limited too phase), i ended up filling up like 3 of the bags. although, to be fair, some of the stuff was my sister's. i found a lot of tournament t-shirts that have accumulated over the years, plus a few tennis camp shirts, strangely enough. i donated most of these. and i have all 5 of my irvine junior games t-shirts from grades 4-8! yellow, red, teal, purple, navy. couldnt give those up, aha. i dunno why, it just feels like they're a part of me.
anyways. i'm getting off track. the point is, i'm really bad at saying goodbye. even to inanimate objects and trivial things, like old teddy bears with stuffing hanging out. how am i ever going to go away to college? haha i'll probably end up bringing 10 suitcases filled to the brim with junk. woe is the poor girl who has to room with me. but i suppose i have 3 years left to perfect the skill of letting go. at least with things. saying goodbye to people is much harder. and really, long-distance relationships just don't work. not even necessarily romantic relationships, but friendships as well. you know what they say: out of sight, out of mind. my best friend goes to irvine high, which is probably less than 5 miles away from woodbridge, (not to mention we live less than 30 seconds away from each other by car, 5 min walking) and yet i feel us drifting. how am i ever going maintain friendships after high school?
maybe it's easier just to not get attached.