letting go (pt2), and feeling like a total dumbass.

today, our woodbridge basketball jv coach resigned.

no, he didn't give up on us. (we went undefeated this year, for god's sake.) but it was a circumstantial situation, and it was a choice between coaching us (which makes less than half of minimum wage. that's just completely wrong. he deserves WAY more) or his job.

i lost the experience of playing high school basketball for a year because i tore my acl.
and now it feels like a much, much greater loss because i also lost the potential i had to become so much better under coach hattrup. aka the best coach on the planet. (and if you're looking for credentials, he's won like national coach of the year before, back when he coached varsity at brea. national as in, in the ENTIRE COUNTRY. the guy's a genius.)

i feel like such a dumbass.
if you've followed my blog since like fall of 2008, you've probably stumbled across an entry that went something along the lines of, "hattrup is the bane of my existence."

god. i was such an idiot.
seriously, it feels like there's a whole new meaning to "you don't know what you have till it's gone."

granted, hattrup could be a total jerk sometimes. but honestly, it was only because he cared so much about us. he actually gave a damn whether or not we'd improve over the year. and he put in so much effort. basketball is...or was, i guess, his heart and soul.
not to mention, he was like the heart and soul of, specifically, woodbridge basketball.

we're going to miss you, coach.

ps. i know this probably seems rather dramatic. but honestly, you had to be there. everyone on the team cried. and i don't think anyone who hasn't ever played for coach hattrup is really fully capable of understanding how great of a loss this is.