deja vu ?

"so do you guys like...go to disneyland every week?"

haha, if only.
although that'd be a lot of makeup work.
and i suppose disneyland would lose its novelty pretty quickly.
twice a year is fine by me (:




ellen and brenden decided to have a who-can-tie-shoelaces-more-creatively contest with my vans.










i will never outgrow merry-go-rounds. ever.




our mighty jungle / explorer picture (:




why yes, that is in fact a turkey leg.

(somewhat belated) thoughts

the girls lock-in was really eye-opening.
i'm glad i went.
i hope the renewed bond between my sisters and i lasts, though.

i'm extremely sensitive these days. the smallest things upset me. and certain moments get stuck in my head and replay themselves over and over and over until i over-analyze them to the point of insanity.

asians are generally either extremely rude, or painstakingly polite.

sometimes, when i'm feeling insecure, i go on the testimonial app on facebook and read some of the kind things people have said about me. even though they're exaggerations, it's nonetheless nice to feel like i have some redeemable qualities.
and yes, i realize how pathetic this is...

i've been obsessed with all things disney for pretty much the past 3 weeks. been rewatching all the classic disney fairy tales & listening to soundtrack music.

i have always wanted a treehouse.
but they cut down the tree in my backyard when i was in elementary school because it was getting too big and intruding on our neighbor's yard.
it probably wouldn't have been suitable for a wooden structure anyway. too leafy.

i can't wait for summer 2010.
i have plans.
major ones :)

college seems so close.

i feel so young. it frustrates me that people who are and have been legally old enough for a while don't bother getting their permits or licenses.

sometimes i kind of see the reasoning behind the whole "live fast, die young" mentality. after all, no one wants to get old and wrinkly and forgetful and all those other things that come with age.
but i do want to be wise. and i want grandchildren. and i want to see how the world will change in the next few decades.
so, God-willing, of course, i don't think i will mind growing old.

haha wow i'm 14 and i'm already thinking of my future senior citizen status.
this is probably not very healthy.

sorry.

lately i've been reverting to my old bitchy ways
and i hate it
and i hate that i can't stop myself before i speak, sometimes
and that things just come out
and that i often snap at people who have done nothing to deserve the results of the my short temper

i don't want to be the person i was in middle school
because although i wasn't afraid of anyone and was secure in my personality and spoke my mind, i hurt a lot of people in doing so.

it's so easy to fall into the hole of bitchiness though
start off with my naturally competitive demeanor, and then factor in sleep deprivation and ap euro-induced stress...and there you have it


this is just a plea to the rest of the world to forgive me when i let exasperation and fatigue and rudeness overtake me.