was i that easy to forget?

people come and go...but i guess i'm lucky enough to have found my one in a million that has stayed with me through it all.

the great escape

these two have made such an impact on my life :)


creds to anthony.

























i wonder
how long the aftershock, so to speak,
of this retreat
will last.





it feels like it's already fading.

please don't fight these hands that are holding you.

i think this song (by your side - tenth avenue north) embodies the extent of God's love for us.
i hope you (yes, you. emo kid :)) take this to heart.
God loves you (and i know i've said that a million times already but at the same time i can't seem to say it enough) and so do so many other people in your life. i wish you could see that.

my heart feels so full it could burst

i think i am the most optimistic i have ever been in my life right now.

retreat left me broken, vulnerable, and pretty perturbed.
but after my eyes had returned to their normal size (took about 24 hours though) and i calmed down enough to think things over, i realized that
i am so, so blessed.
i have the most amazing people in my life.
God loves me and forgives me for my sins.
He has given me so much and up until now, i took these gifts for granted.
starting from right now, though, i'm making a change. i'm going to put in so much more effort to maintain my friendships. i'm going to try to bring my sister back into Christ again and read the Word of the Lord to her every single day. i'm going to love everyone around me because i love God and God loves everybody, regardless of who you are.

oh my gosh this is so jumbled and i cannot even put my emotions into words
but i'm really, really joyful right now.
i have been given the opportunity to truly make a difference, and i won't let it go to waste :)

4 months till freedom

i love warm weather
i love sunshine
i love the light breeze
i love crisp but not cold mornings
i love starbucks when it's 75 degrees
i love waking up to the sun
i love that the day goes past 5 pm now


but rain is coming.
):

happiness is so shortlived.

happy single-awareness day, s.a.d. for short

it's that time of year again.!
when love/like/infatuation is in the air.
when stores are decked out with red and pink decorations, balloons, stuffed animals, and countless bouquets.
when a heart-shaped box of chocolate (or better yet, diamond jewelry) can buy affection.
when mass pda is occurring everywhere you look.
when single people feel like utter crap.

this year is different, though.
i've come to realize that, as of now, i don't really want to be in a relationship.
or rather, it's not that i don't want to be in a relationship, but i don't NEED to be in one.
i don't need the extra stress, or attention, or vulnerability.
i can barely handle my friendships these days, so i don't even know how i would go about managing a relationship.
and seeing all the skin-deep, shallow ones around me doesn't really make me more optimistic about young love :P
(not that i don't know any admirable couples. they're just rare, that's all.)

so i think i am okay, being single as always on v-day.
i am complete, all by myself.

“Never say that someone completes you. We have to feel whole even when we are by ourselves, for needing a certain someone is not love, but dependency. Wanting a person to become a part of your life is the best reason for having them, and you can only want when you know you have enough. So rather than search for that someone who will complete you, wait for the person who will complement your completeness.”

so tightly raveled

it is hard to no longer have a confidante.
i feel as though i shall explode soon from keeping everything inside.
i'm afraid that one day some tiny, minuscule action will set me off and i will release everything. and i won't be able to stop myself from pouring out everything i have ever felt and thought.
and no one will like me anymore because i have felt and thought some pretty unkind things.



oh, and facebook is down. so if you (yes, you. not-so-anonymous blog reader) are reading this, know that i will respond via message eventually. & thanks for the conversation, wisdom, and random quotations; it means a lot. i know that we were strangers just a few days ago but i'm glad that we can now have completely honest conversations about life, people, the future, and whatnot.
because i sadly do not know many other people that i can do that with /:

we are more than blood and emotions, atoms on oceans

one day i'll be someone's sunshine :)


HARRY POTTER TELEPHONE BOOTH <3
seriously one of the highlights of the day.
and that's saying quite a bit.

















all in all it was an amazing sunday.
it's been a while since i just hung out, wasted away the time by playing cards and bathing in the sunshine, and just relaxed.